I'm done with this journal. The fact that I can't be completely anonymous (with the exception of my girls whom I don't mind reading it). Among other things.
So this is the last post. Buh-bye : )
I was momentarily repulsed today when I discovered someone had surrendered to their patheticism in the most unappealing way. Darling, if you ever figure out that I'm writing about you...you made me want to vomit and laugh simultaneously today. Not the most immature thing I've ever said, but close enough.
Maya, Juhnae and I had an early evening after Marianna and Mike came by to help me with the move. I love my room although I'm seemingly stuck with two ugly couches. So, yes, its barely ten and I'm in for the night. Not bitter, just......tired. I had fun seeing my ladies, its not very often that just the three of us have gotten to spend time together. Maya leaves for Sydney in a year and she's going to move back to Sacramento soon. We'll have to make the best of that since she'll be gone for who knows how long. Australia isn't exactly an hour's drive from here.
Tomorrow afternoon, Marianna and I are going shopping for our Halloween headpieces. Maya mentioned she was having a get-together for Halloween at her place (on Halloween). It also got me to thinking about well, things that I've been rolling around inside my skull for the past day or two. It would be so perfect if the person in mind wasn't so frigid. Unfortuantely, they are. Grrr...should not be thinking like that anyway.
Ok, done being vague. Good night.
Finally spoke with Claudia about AAGRO. I think she was a little taken aback when I said, "Call me if you need ANYTHING." I like surprising people with good news. Unfortunately this weekend is bad timing as far as certain fundraisers for that go. I have a date with Juhnae Saturday day/evening and Sunday is Decompression.
I also got my sinus appointment today for 5pm.
"How long have you been experiencing these symptoms?"
"My whole life.."
"You mean sporadically?"
"I mean my ENTIRE life."
"Oh. So you have itchy watery eyes, congestion, sinus pressure..."
Receptionists can be so dense. I don't know how many times I said NO to sinus infection. Its completely different. Well, whatever...as long as I get an appointment today.
Hopefully Marianna calls me back today. I'm moving all my things into my new room. Lots of heavy things, yay. And I don't know if Maya and I are going out to San Francisco tonight but even if we go out in Sacramento thats just fine. Of course I love hanging out with you, what kind of concern is that!
I'm still angry..or atleast irritated. I jumped the gun on one thing, definitely, and that was giving up those lovely blue pills this past January. When you get out of a relationship you feel the need to tell everything to fuck off, that you can be different and better. I did alright with everything but the medication. That I need. Its not a crutch, but it does keep me level headed. Irritability is a sign of anxiety...apart from the anxiety itself. Hmmm...making a phonecall tomorrow...
Anyway, Gabe came by and we did the "thing". I now have a mini-portfolio for tomorrow. God, I hope I get the job.
I bought some mix today for apple martinis. They are heavenly.